How they crumble and they fall - As I surrender all...
Countenance: a person’s behavior or the way a person’s face expresses his or her character.
I had a pretty delightful talk with KO in Sunday. The monthly check-up to see how everything is going. I was a little taken when he started saying that my countenance radiated the best now then it has in a very long time. A little background - I've known KO since I was 11. Needless to say, he's known me pretty well for a very long time. For him to say a comment like this, I started crying. Not bad tears. Relieving tears. He continued to say "That doesn't mean your life is perfect and you don't have trials. It just means that whatever you're doing - hold on to it. Keep doing it."
It made me start thinking. What AM I doing? My scripture reading has taken a backslide lately. Prayers don't come as easy. It hit me. My choices. The choices that I am making in my life are finally the ones I should be. Please don't misconstrue that to I have a set of rules that I must follow. It's not that at all. There are guidelines that I choose to follow. And I can honestly say - with all of my heart - that they have been the right choices.
I've thought about it a lot lately. I've never doubted the things that I learned in church. I never doubted how I felt. I just went through my hard-headedness where I thought I was right about everything. And I was wrong. I know that now. I have been the happiest in the last several months than I have in a long time. And it's because of the values that I'm hanging on to. The values that I am looking for in a guy. I'm not settling this time. It's all or nothing.
I had a pretty delightful talk with KO in Sunday. The monthly check-up to see how everything is going. I was a little taken when he started saying that my countenance radiated the best now then it has in a very long time. A little background - I've known KO since I was 11. Needless to say, he's known me pretty well for a very long time. For him to say a comment like this, I started crying. Not bad tears. Relieving tears. He continued to say "That doesn't mean your life is perfect and you don't have trials. It just means that whatever you're doing - hold on to it. Keep doing it."
It made me start thinking. What AM I doing? My scripture reading has taken a backslide lately. Prayers don't come as easy. It hit me. My choices. The choices that I am making in my life are finally the ones I should be. Please don't misconstrue that to I have a set of rules that I must follow. It's not that at all. There are guidelines that I choose to follow. And I can honestly say - with all of my heart - that they have been the right choices.
I've thought about it a lot lately. I've never doubted the things that I learned in church. I never doubted how I felt. I just went through my hard-headedness where I thought I was right about everything. And I was wrong. I know that now. I have been the happiest in the last several months than I have in a long time. And it's because of the values that I'm hanging on to. The values that I am looking for in a guy. I'm not settling this time. It's all or nothing.
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